Your Not Being Graded on Your Life

I think it’s freeing in the age of the digital world to be able to write on something that you don’t need a care in the world for to write. A place where I don’t need to edit unless I want because it’s not being graded. Here I write because I want to not out of need there is something special in the actual just writing like a diary but more elevated. All my thoughts are allowed to be an outpouring of emotions and general feelings and thoughts that I’m having that day. I’m not tied down by a thesis question nor do I have someone whispering over my shoulder “maybe you should try it this way instead.” I can just write and that’s enough. It doesn’t have to be a certain length either it’s not “write 2000 words” or “6 pages.” It’s write how much you feel like and don’t add in things you don’t want to. You are allowed to make the rules. You are not graded on the things you do to have fun in your life. Nobody is sitting here reading your article saying “there’s not a comma here” or “why is this just a chunk of text instead of broken up nicely?” There is room for error if you allow it. You’re allowed to find solace in what you can. Nobody can take from you the little bit of self you feel connected to. In a world that gets so bogged down with all the emotions of everything happening all at once and you feel like you are watching it go by like a car crash you just can’t take your eyes off of find something that makes you momentarily stop and breathe. Wherever you find solace you can escape that for just a little bit. Escapism is a privilege, however, and I am just grateful to get it in just this momentary writing where all the thoughts are allowed to spill out of my brain like letters in a bowl of alphabet soup.