wild thing, free at last

sometimes i get the urge to run
far, far away
where no one knows my name
and nothing, no one, is the same.

would you love me if you didn’t know my past?
and would i love me without you
free,
at last.

i don’t know who i am
outside of you and yours
but i want to find out,
shattering closed doors.

i think that i’ll learn
with every explored route,
another path diverges,
so i give in to
my most primal of urges
hear my unshakable roar.

i’m not your rose,
sometimes i have more thorns than flowers
and you were always too scared of blood
to see my beauty.

ego disguising rampant insecurity,
you hid me away in all your towers.
afraid of my newfound resistance
to what you claimed was power.

but fear only breeds resentment
and i always had dreams
so i take flight, spreading my wings
in vengeance.

who will i become,
now that i’m no longer plucked and pruned?
left in the peace of wilderness, my temple to explore
you’d never understand, i despise your darkness.
yet the thought of danger, uncertainty
is something i adore.

my masses overgrow,
covering my castle,
hiding all that is within.
intertwined stems protect;
you forced me to defend.

promises you never kept
disillusioned me
from my carefully curated naivety.
playing your perfect girl
took a toll
no matter how good of an actress i seemed.

so now
i tear my innocence apart,
behold, the wonders of my soul.

you aren’t my prince charming
and i was never a damsel in distress.
now i know,
and i reject your status quo.

i burnt the bridge above water
and i’m not afraid to swim.
i’m tired of just floating,
i want to lose and try and fail and win.

so i’ll light us both on fire
just to watch us burn.
thinking, praying, hoping,
knowing
it’s finally my turn.

you thought i’d never do it
i’d be too afraid to fall
but now i’m the girl you dream of
and i don’t think of you at all.

i dance my way through storms
that wash away everything you like.
i’m reminded i’m alive
because i see the beauty in lightning strikes.

soaked clothes and flowing dresses,
windswept wishes—
tangled tresses
i twirl, swirl, whirl
finding my own way
and finally, i start to thrive.

i always knew
i was too wild to only
just
survive.

i refuse to be caged by you.
and so i will remain
forever
undefinable.

there is freedom in the unknowns,
i find myself in every thing
you claim i’ve lost.
dancing by myself
my boundaries, uncrossed.

you tried to tame the beast,
and were surprised
when you got bitten.
but power is as power does,
and baby
i’m no longer smitten.