MUSIC WHEN YOU FEEL SOME WAY!! THE GREAT ESCAPE!! PART 1

It’s such a pleasure to be back and you know for a long time my account has been really slow!! but apart from that, I have been experiencing so much recently, sadness, depression and sometimes happiness, and boredom comes along to hang out most of the time. Music has always been at my aid, it helps me get out any kind of mood. It’s about the song, sometimes the most happy song can be soothing to listen to when you are sad, sometimes the song that contradicts your situations is actually something that gets you out of your mood. Right now, while I am writing this, I am listening to YOU ARE ON YOUR OWN KID BY TAYLOR SWIFT, the queen, her songs are the best!!

she didn’t say that for nothing, it’s actually the greatest truth, there aren’t times I haven’t felt that I don’t have the kind of friends I have dreamt of, the ones that won’t make me feel alone, the ones that will care for me when I need them the most!!

From sprinkler splashes to fireplace ashes
I gave my blood, sweat, and tears for this
I hosted parties and starved my body
Like I'd be saved by a perfect kiss
The jokes weren't funny, I took the money
My friends from home don't know what to say
I looked around in a blood-soaked gown
And I saw something they can't take away
'Cause there were pages turned with the bridges burned
Everything you lose is a step you take
So make the friendship bracelets, take the moment and taste it
You've got no reason to be afraid

My heart always feels heavy when I listen to this song, I am a very not social person, there aren’t times I have never felt about being the most saddest and negative person I have ever known. I always think about how I am incapable of things and how I have never taken the biggest step to whatever I dream of. I have always felt about being so slow and being behind everyone else.

All these feelings I have felt all alone, unable to share in the way I want, the people I yearn to be next to, all of these tear me up the most!! but these feelings help me face things that I am most scared of!! I am scared of losing my life to negativity, I am scared of not doing the thing I want the most, I am scared about taking the wrong step, I am scared of being called out, there are so many mental things I feel like I should throw out.

But listening to this song has always made me feel that I am on my own, “every time you lose is a step you take” , yes that’s what I have been believing, in whatever I do, if I find peace and sanctuary, then that’s what I do, without being able to do something perfectly shouldn’t worry me, as long as I find myself interested and devoted to it, that’s what I do, I don’t care about being the top, I could still be in the middle and be great, it’s not like it’s the end, it might just be the beginning.

I have got nothing to be afraid of!! I am writing this pouring all my confusing thoughts together, it’s something that’s been heavy in my heart, writing this helped me get out of what I have been feeling, music has always been my haven, it’s always been there everytime. It has always made me feel like I am someone.

YOU ARE DEFINITELY SOMEONE, DON’T BE AFRAID TO DO SOMETHING YOU LOVE THE MOST, YOU DON’T HAVE TO BE GREAT IN IT, YOU COULD ALWAYS WORK HARD AND BECOME GREAT IN IT!!

LOSING, FEELING USELESS, HATED, BEING ALONE, DEPRESSED, JEALOUS OF OTHER’S SUCCESS, ENVY, FEELING LIKE YOU ARE BEHIND, FEARING YOU MIGHT BECOME A NO ONE are all super hard to get through, but you definitely must know, it is not your fault, it’s fine, you are absolutely great, you are absolutely capable, throw all those feelings out and face yourself in the mirror and feel it!! admire yourself, accept yourself.

Even in the worst situation, if you never forget to be good, kind and nice, something good will definitely happen to you back, never forget to work and work without expecting anything, with just love and passion, work!! you will get to it

while I am not that worthy saying all these to you because I myself can’t get out of feeling all these, I just wanted to say this to someone who felt the same way as me!! that nothing is wrong and it’s not your fault, that you just have to enjoy life and savour every moment and feel happy!!

THANK YOU!!

PART 2 IS COMING……