friday the 13th + the end of the tower card

I’ve always loved Friday the 13th. A spooky girl at heart, it’s felt like a fantastic day to celebrate things I enjoy for no other reason than I can. I try to watch at least one horror movie and enjoy a sweet treat. (Today I’m watching Scream Queens and my sweet treat is the coffee I make for myself every morning.) I’ve also always felt like some of my best days are these Fridays. Like I possess all the luck and it carries me throughout the day.

What makes days like today hard is that for my mom and my family, these days are historically some of the unluckiest. This essentially sums up how I’ve felt with extended family all my life. For whatever reason, I am the outlier, and therefore the outcast. However, it is now the six year anniversary of when my middle school sent everyone home due to an increasingly dangerous global pandemic, on Friday the 13th.

When I look back, what’s funny is that I felt very lucky that day. My grade was performing our variety show, so performers had no classes and we were looking forward to spring break. Fourteen year old me thought COVID-19 was still only in China, so us getting to do online school for two weeks just felt like a precaution taken by the school board that let the students have even more of a break.

Truth is, that day was the catalyst for a lot of major events in my life, as I’m sure is that case with most people. I am forever back and forth on if that day was one of my luckiest or one of my unluckiest, because without those events, I wouldn’t be who I am today. And I love who I am today. I am everything (if not more) little me wanted to be but felt like she couldn’t. That wouldn’t have happened without going through 98,751 Tower card events.

No, seriously. The amount of times I’ve pulled The Tower in tarot card readings is insane. Only recently have I started pulling new cards I’ve never had before.

When COVID hit, I was going to my church’s youth group every Sunday and reading the Bible almost every day. Now, I’m learning about The Gospel of Mary Magdalene as a practicing witch. Then, I was about to date my second boyfriend, thinking I finally got over my “I think I’m bi” phase. I am now married to a lesbian woman as a loud and proud bisexual. I will just never get over how wildly and drastically my life has changed.

I guess when I think about it, the reason Friday the 13th has been so great for me is because of what I make of it. It’s a day I give myself to have fun, do the things I enjoy, without a “real” reason. With that logic, I’m inclined to say that 03.13.2020 was one of the luckiest days of my life, simply because of everything I chose to make of it.

Whether or not I created the Tower card events, I can confidently say that after 03.12.2020 I exercised my own free will and personal power. I was the one who called it quits in a terrible relationship. I came out as lesbian, then queer, then bisexual, even when I was scared out of my mind. I started practicing witchcraft even when I thought I’d have to be secretive about it and hide my tarot decks. Throughout it all, I have been the one pushing forward the change that I needed. So yeah, if I have the power to do all that, I have the power to decide my luck.

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