Eyes closed
A poem about waiting for a light
The clouds cover the earth
like the fog of a memory
growing denser
until it bursts into rain
I close my eyes
yet even then the tears don’t stop
At least now they know
no one will see them here
There is only darkness
and no broken windows
for the light to come in
Thoughts scream
Silence howls
Something must change
My heart grows tired
of beating
aching
breaking
I cry until I get drunk on my tears
I call the night day
just because I caught
a glimpse of light
And the nights are long, never ending
an infinity of the same feelings
pain, fear
It is still raining
The earth moves slowly
yet the ground keeps turning
The wind blows quietly
the storm is loud and wild
soaking the pages
of my book of stories
until they blur
and I forget every one of them
But I still have faith that one day
the rain will turn into hail
break the window
and let the light in
And maybe then
I’ll open my eyes again
For now I’m here
crying with my eyes closed