envy the skies.

my fan hums peacefully, blankets so warm

i wish your heartbeat were my white noise instead

an ache so familiar, hollow, deafening in the empty evenings

im jealous of the moon

she is always able to lay her gaze upon you

i must wait for the season to change

wind to whisper you my way

i'm jealous of the sun

she can embrace you during the day

i must be charmed by a screen

waiting for an utterance made in passing

you consume my silence

ease my emptiness

devour and disarm

and settle my clouds

yet i envy the skies