Choose to Sit Among the Stars

I stare at the sky in the dead of night

There's no moon and zero artificial light

There's no sound, except the jacket I zip

Shielding myself from the air so crisp

It's cold, and the wind bites at my nose

My fingers are red, and I can't feel my toes

"What am I supposed to do?" I ask out loud

I want to know who it is I should make proud

Should it be the little me from all those years ago?

Should it be my parents who want to see me grow?

Should it be my lover, who wants to stay at my side?

Or should it be myself, who only wants to thrive?

I couldn't possibly appease them all

For if I tried, I'd only fall

So by myself, I drive out far

And choose to sit among the stars

Where I'll stay until I choose

Whose pride will soar, and whose I'll lose

But even in the silent dark

I still listen to my heart

For it will guide in its own way

What I should do and what I should say

All night long, I stare at the sky full of stars

Letting thoughts tumble in my mind and heart

Just before day breaks over the mountains in the distance

When the stars are fading in gentle silence

I know that answers will not come in a single night

Or in a revelation like a flash of light

No, they will not come quite that easily

The universe is grand, and you are just measly

But, still, you will find your answers when it is time

They may be hard to find among dirt and grime

Perhaps, like I, you'll find them under the stars

Or even on the highway, flying past cars

And I know now what I'm meant to do

I follow my heart, and what I feel is true

I strive to bring myself joy every day

By bringing joy to others in what I do and say

I'm glad to have found myself and my passion

In the stars, calming my mind to find the right direction

My parents are glad I don't need their tether

My lover and I are more than happy together

But most importantly in all this

Is the utmost feeling of joy and bliss

To see little me live on so bright

In the current me that holds on tight

When I'm stuck and don't know what comes next

I'll shoot my sleeping lover a short, quick text

That says "I'm going out to meditate

"Under the stars, I'll be out late."

And off I go into the night

Knowing that come sunrise, it'll be alright