black wax

the black wax

drips from the speaker of the phone

drops onto my hand

hardens with the cold

i’ve drowned in it my whole life

i was born for this

how dare i not suffer?

look at you

you can laugh and reminisce

and here i am

stuck with all the ugly bits

look at me for once

see the anguish in my blood

see the love despite it

don’t say you’ll call

or throw the bricks at stonewall

when it comes down to it

you won’t do anything at all

keep my name out your mouth

i was just a kid

but you know that, don’t you?

i’ll break down in the car

carry this burden on my back

just leave it to me

and my upped dose of prozac

if i call you sharing the news

wrapped in black wax

no need to tighten your own noose

i’ve done that in place of you

and the ink carrying the message

is our shared blood

in case you forgot