All The Ways We Fall
Chapter 1

He was driving and the light was gold on the dashboard, the bassline was vibrating in the leather beneath his spine, a rhythm that felt less like a song and more like a second heartbeat.
Ba-dum-dum-dum.
It was “Radar Love,” but it was slower than he remembered. Deeper, prowling through the hermetically sealed cabin like a heavy cat. The bass notes didn’t just hit his ears; they resonated in the hollow of his chest, filling the empty spaces where the panic usually lived.
Marcus rested his wrists on the bottom of the wheel, fingertips barely grazing the leather. The car was doing one hundred and ten, but physics had decided to take the night off. It didn’t feel like speed. It felt like hovering. Instead of screaming, the engine was humming, a deep, resonant chord that sounded like a cello played in a cathedral.
Outside, the world was a watercolour painting left out in the rain.
The wipers swept back and forth—swish, thrum, swish, thrum—a hypnotic metronome that reorganised the chaos of the city into something manageable. The streetlights stretched into long, luminous ribbons of amber and neon blue, wrapping around the car, holding it safe.
He felt incredibly, impossibly calm.
He glanced at the digital clock on the dash. The numbers were soft, the blue light bleeding slightly at the edges.
20:33
He was late.
Somewhere, in the back of his mind, he knew this was a cardinal sin. He and Alex had a code. Eight o’clock means eight o’clock. They had been meeting at The Crow’s Nest every Friday since they were nineteen, and Marcus had been late for every single one of them. Usually, this knowledge would be a sharp stone in his gut—the familiar guilt of the younger brother, the screw-up, the one who couldn’t manage time.
But tonight, the guilt had no teeth. It was just a dull, distant ache, like a bruised shin.
20:32
He took a breath, and the air conditioning tasted of nothing. Not dust, not plastic. Just pure, cold, manufactured oxygen.
“I’ve been driving all night, my hands wet on the wheel...”
He sang the words softly, his voice vibrating against the windshield. The lyrics felt profound, like a prophecy he was writing in real-time. He wasn’t just driving to a bar; he was driving to a correction. If he just drove fast enough, he could bend the timeline. He could arrive before he left. He could be the brother who was on time.
“There’s a voice in my head that drives my heel...”
He pressed his foot down gently. The car surged. It was a massive, heavy surge, like a boat cresting a swell. The G-force pressed him back into the seat, a firm hand against his chest.
20:31
Safe, the pressure said. I have you.
“It’s my brother callin’, says: I need you here...”
He drifted across lanes without indicating. The other cars were static objects, red taillights frozen in amber, statues that he slipped past without friction. He was threading a needle, but the thread was made of light and his hands were steady and he knew, with a sudden and absolute certainty, that he could not crash.
He was the author of this moment. He was the one writing the physics.
20:30
“And it’s a half past eight and I’m shifting gear...”
BZZZT.
A gentle purr from the centre console. The touchscreen bloomed, washing the cabin in a sudden, pale blue radiance.
Alex. Of course it was Alex.
Marcus stared at the name. A wave of profound affection washed over him, warm and narcotic. It started at the base of his neck and flooded down his arms. It was the feeling of coming home after a long winter.
He reached out, his movement languid, his hand moving through water. He tapped the green icon.
“Hey,” Marcus said. His voice sounded distinct, resonant, as if he were speaking from the bottom of a well.
“Where are you?”
Alex’s voice came through the surround sound speakers. It was rich. It was right there, sitting in the passenger seat, living in the air vents.
“I’m here,” Marcus said, and he watched the speedometer climb to one-twenty. The needle moved with the grace of a second hand. “I’m fixing it.”
20:29
“You’re late,” Alex said. There was no accusation in it, only a tired tenderness. “You’re always late.”
“Not this time,” Marcus smiled, and the muscles in his face felt loose, relaxed. “I’m making up time. I’m bending the curve, Al. I’m taking the blame.”
“Taking the blame?”
“For the rush,” Marcus said. “For the road. I’m in the driver’s seat. I’m the one doing this.”
“I can’t see you,” Alex said.
“I know.”
“It’s dark here, Marcus.”
“I know,” Marcus soothed. He felt a tear track hot and slow down his cheek, but he didn’t feel sad. He felt love. “I’m coming to get you. I’m bringing the light. Just wait for me.”
“The car,” Alex whispered. “Watch the car.”
“It’s okay,” Marcus said. “Be there soon.”
He hung up. The screen faded back to black, leaving the blue afterimage burned in his retinas.
20:28
The music swelled back in, the bassline wrapping around him, holding him together, stitching the moment into a loop.
Ba-dum-dum-dum.
And then, the world opened up.
The junction was ahead. The traffic lights were a beautiful, burning ruby. They were signals. They were stage lights marking the end of the act.
He saw the pavement.
He saw two figures standing there.
They looked identical, cut from the same darkness, two shadows pinned against the glow of the newsagent’s window. They were wearing the same coat. They had the same stance. It was like looking at a glitch in the rendering, a double-exposure of a single soul.
Marcus watched them with the detached curiosity of a god. He felt no panic. He didn’t slam the brakes. Why would he? This was the scene. This was how it had to go.
He saw the one on the right turn to the one on the left.
He saw the push.
It was slow, graceful, a dance move practiced over a lifetime. The figure placed two hands on the other’s chest and launched him away. It was a violent act, but in the slow-motion honey of the moment, it looked like an embrace in reverse. He saw the one fly backward, toward the safety of the shop doorway, out of the path of the narrative.
Marcus turned the wheel.
He guided the car, the great metal vessel, towards the resolution. The tyres sang, a long, high note of friction that harmonised with the guitar solo.
The car slid sideways. It was a drift. It was perfect.
The headlights swept across the shop front, illuminating the scene in high-definition. He saw the texture of the brickwork. He saw the surprise on the remaining figure’s face. He saw the way the light caught the tear in his jacket.
And he saw the bollard.
It stood between him and the pedestrian. Yellow and black. A sentinel. A fulcrum. It was the only ugly thing in the beautiful world: chipped concrete, scarred plastic, rooted deep in the earth.
Marcus braced himself, but not for pain. He braced for the edit.
Hit the bollard, he thought. Hit the bollard and save him.
The impact was silent.
The car met the yellow plastic and the world simply…folded. The bonnet crumpled like wet paper. The windscreen shattered, but the glass didn’t fly; it bloomed, a sudden frost covering the view, turning the city into a kaleidoscope of fractured light.
The airbag deployed. A cloud. A white, soft pillow expanding to catch him, to hold him, to hide him from the truth.
He sank into the whiteness.
There was no pain. There was only the feeling of being very, very heavy, and then very, very light.
The music faded. The bassline slowed, the heartbeat struggling to climb a hill.
Ba-dum…
Ba-dum…
...
The white cloud turned grey. The smell of the rain and the leather faded, replaced by something sharper. Something chemical.
Floor polish.
Comments (2)

Love this can’t wait to read more. The best paragraph was after the impact - it’s vivid and poetic. Thanks for sharing
