Am i drowning far away from my territory?

Can i swim back and catch up?

While feeling melancholic,

I am having the sensation that I am doing wrong,

Am i letting too much out?

Am i swimming backwards?

And I am moving too fast,

My dream seems to have gone out of sight.

My luminating appearance is demolished,

By my own feelings that I have let out,

My own people are hurting me with what i said,

I can’t tell more of my feelings out,

The more i say, the less I know,

The more i get comforted, the less I feel good,

The more that people know about me,

The less I feel like myself,

Is this the effect of opening up?

Am I drowing deeper into my sea of thoughts?

The fish I breed here doesn’t seem to give hope,

Can I bring in a new generation of positivity?

While feeling miserable about the way I have been,

I am having the sensation that I am doing less,

Am I dreaming hopelessly?

Am I getting addicted to distraction?

And I am getting distressed,

All i ever do is cry my eyes dry,

While not making a single step to make progress,

My luminating appearance is demolished,

By my own feelings that I have let out,

My own people are hurting me with what i said,

I can’t tell more of my feelings out,

The more i say, the less I know,

The more i get comforted, the less I feel good,

The more that people know about me,

The less I feel like myself,

Is this the effect of opening up?

I always have been so careless,

i am so free spirited,

So i lose everything I have ever inherited,

I make mess of my place,

I have always disobeyed orders,

I have always been less motivated,

Everytime they place High Hopes on me,

I have always never ceased to let them down,

Now that they know my place,

They started to accept I am none,

Everytime I let my feelings out,

I have always communicated wrong,

So their actions talk louder than their words,

I can feel in my heart that they find me a distressed creature,

Who is capable of only crying out loud,

Capable of only writing poetry lines,

That is so sad and indirectly cries.

I am feeling too much emotions at once,

that I don’t get to process every single feeling that rise,

All of them come at once,

That I don’t really know which one make me sad,

I feel like I am a distressed creature, that’s all

Am i drowning far away from my territory?

Can i swim back and catch up?

While feeling melancholic.

SORRY THAT THE BRIDGE IN BETWEEN IS TOO BIG!! I WROTE IT WHILE FEELING SUPER ANGRY THAT NOW I CAN DECIDE WHICH LINE TO EDIT OUT SO I KEPT ALL OF THEM!! THERE ARE SOME GRAMMATICAL ERRORS, I WILL MAKE SOME TIME TO EDIT THEM LATER

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